For those of you who know me well, you know that once I make up my mind about something, I pretty much want it now. If I decide that I want to go on a trip, chances are that I will book it that day or soon thereafter. If I decide that I need to go on a diet, it starts right that minute, guns-a-blazing. If I make up my mind to buy something, it happens pretty darn quickly. And if I decide that I want to get my teeth straight, well, I make an appointment and want them fixed right now. Not in two years (GASP!), but RIGHT NOW. However, orthodontics doesn’t work that way. The structure of my mouth has to change slowly over time with the help of the orthodontist, several contraptions, and usually some pain and discomfort. But in the end, I know that my teeth will be more beautiful then ever and will walk around smiling all the time.
So I don't think it’s a coincidence at all that God is trying to teach me patience at the same time that I am entering a long process to straighten my teeth. His timing is impeccable. There are things that are out of my control, which is another hard lesson for me.
I hope this is making some sort of sense. I feel like I’m just throwing up all over this blog. But it really does scare me! I get so easily distracted in my life. At least with orthodontics, I can see my progress. I know that I’m getting closer and closer to my desired goal. God doesn’t always show me my progress in life, or at least in ways that I recognize or prefer. More than anything, I think ultimately what God wants is for me to truly, wholeheartedly, desire Him and His plan. To be all in and to have an unwaivering faith in Him. To trust Him. He does, after all, exist so that I can glorify Him. He’s here. He’s present. And He’s waiting for my heart to desire Him.